You wud never see my tears. Though my heart is broken I’ll keep my mouth shut. If I have to die like this I don’t mind. Wish someday you realize.
It’s never easy to be me. Having noone to share. Having nobody to understand. My situation is rare, my feelings are not common.
It’s not that I don’t love you. I wanna live to see that you having a good life, enjoy your life. I don’t understand if its all disappear when I’m staying too close with you. Can’t forget the pain, can’t losing the hate. My biggest regret is never know how to erase the hate in my heart. Never know how it comes.
The Best Things in 2011 and 2012 Resolutions
The year 2011 almost end, I try to remember the best things happened to me during this year. It makes me smile to know that I’ve already living my life to the fullest and I choose the best moment per month for it makes me thankful to realized that everyday is a blessing. Here they are:
January: “?” shooting days in Semarang
February: FTV shooting days with Cinepro
March: Ganbate video
April: DSDK shooting days
May: My bday
June: Become a redhead
July: Shoot VC - F1 night
August: Deadline days (The most stressful days thk God it’s over)
September: 7th anniversary surprise celebration & Mike Posner
October: Start working n Nonthesis defense day
November: Bali - skygarden nights - x2
December: Graduation & Xmas
Resolutions for 2012
1. Work out & dance more, join theatre
2. Enjoy every single time, happy or sad
3. Keep the positive energy, keep motivated, maintain the spirit, stay humble, never give up
4. Make more friends
5. No complaint
6. Spend more time with family
7. Make more money and saving
8. Be honest and say the truth
9. More communication to God
10. Get M.si
11. Make others feel like they’re special
12. Smile more often
13. Drink water
14. Be more productive, make more projects and performances with all heart
15. Remember people’s names
16. Make a note
17. Help others, refuse to say no
18. Travel more
19. Imagine, browsing and read more
20. Spend more time in a real world than in a virtual world
Who am I is never as important as the time that I’ve made worth living, people around me, things that I believing, faith which makes everything worth fighting, what I’ve been through, story I want to tell, love of my life, every single moment which takes my breath away, and the most important thing, an amazing Christmas day.
Christian or not, let the happiness from Christmas be with you and enlighten your life forever, so you won’t regret every single day in your life. Cheer up for all the worthy little things. Merry Christmas!
This season of giving, may we remember the One who gave us His only son to live in this world, to suffer and die to save us. Thank You for your biggest gifts: of grace, forgiveness, and salvation. ♥
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Merry Christmas, everyone! Happy birthday, my Lord and Savior!
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Yeiiyy!! Transgendz finally graduated!!
It took us almost 4 yrs to take this BA Hons degree, but its all worth it.
Almost 3 years with you guys, feels like minutes.
Cheers to all the memories, hopefully we’ll stay to be the same person and never be the normal one.
People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that’s what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life.
A true soul mate is probably the most important person you’ll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave.
A soul mates purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master…”
Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat, Pray, Love
The Story about Elsie, 80-yrs-old.
“I was young when I married my first husband. As you can see, I am not particularly attractive now, nor was I in my youth. I was, what you may call, a simple looking kind of girl. My husband, however, was very attractive, and I often wondered what he saw in me. After a while it seemed like he was asking himself the same question, because he was having many affairs, and ultimately we divorced, though we did produce two beautiful daughters who were fortunate enough to have their father’s looks.
I decided to stay single, as I felt that I cannot trust men, but then met my second husband who vigorously courted me. My daughters encouraged me to marry him as he seemed to them like a very solid citizen. That he was, but at the same time he was extremely boring, very dry and not verbal at all. Even though I regretted the marriage, I felt that he was a good provider – loyal and decent. Fortunately, he died of a sudden heart attack about twelve years ago. I know that it sounds heartless, but I felt like I could have my life back.
Again, I decided to stay single, and this time I was very adamant about it, which is kind of ironic, because I did not have any suitors anyway. I was 68 years old, still plain-looking and not interested in men.
I was acquainted with my then husband-to- be because we belonged to a bridge club. However, I never bothered to get to know him, as I was married and so was he. So, in the meanwhile, I was busy getting my life back together, and I didn’t realize that his wife died as well.
One day my phone rang and it was him, asking me if I wanted to go to a concert with him. Well, I loved classical music, so I said yes. We went to the concert, and then we had a drink, and the rest is history.
We fell madly in love – he was about 73 at the time, and I was approaching 69. I know it’s hard to imagine that people my age, and with my looks, can fall passionately in love – but that’s what happened.
From that day on, we tried to spend all our time together. Granted, his daughter did not like me (and she still does not), but the rest of his family said I’m the best thing that ever happend to him. And, I know that he is the best thing that ever happened to me. Unlike it was with our deceased spouses, we go to concerts and plays, which we both love - and we travel three times a year to exotic locations. We just cannot wait to go on our next expedition!
We are best friends. We share everything together; we love doing the same things, and we would rather be with each other than with anyone else. Rachel, I know that in your therapist’s head you are trying to figure out what was it that I did differently … what with this being the third time around. Well, I don’t want to break your bubble, but the answer is nothing. I am simply the luckiest woman in the world. It was pure luck!”
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